I’ve been hesitant to post in here, cos of alot of bad blood from alot of people, but eh, i only really see one person from this site so meh. that plus in reality and like i’ve always known my problems are lesser imo cos there’s no visible cause or reason, ■■■■ just happened haha.
anyway i suffer from anxiety, and altho never clinically diagnosed, from reading and watching and ackowledging certain traits, suffer from depression. I prolly should get a proper diagnosis on both fronts.
Guess can’t add too much to any of the above situations other people have described, i have good periods, i have bad periods, and have alot inbetween.
I guess i dont’ have it as bad as others, so i’ve never really gone into full blown do everything possible to fix it (as much as one can) mode, so i don’t have the lows others have, and i don’t have the highs others have, I just sit in a somewhat numb middle, where i’m content when i’m not visible thinking or reactiong emotionally to being unhappy.
Guess that’s the curse to not having a visible concrete reason as to why i suffer it.
The only thing i’d make mention of, in the hope some get it is, I’ve always tried to be pragmatically honest to a fault. However that gets interpreted as negative or miserable or all that crap, even if i turn out to be 100% correct in what I’ve said.
I’ve never seen the point in trying to live in any sort of fairyland, or delusion, I believe i can see faults in everything, and still choose to invest my time, energy and effort into whatever, because I choose to see the whole picture, the good the bad the ugly, and go right, I like this or that for this reason, while also acknowledging i don’t like this aspect about it.
and that’s all i’ve ever seen it as, a pragmatic analysis of my perceived facts of reality, to get as close to what i believe is the honest truth on anything or situation.
and trust me, people have claimed i’m harshly unfair on the EFC, among other things, that’s nothing to the scrutiny i put myself under and through, via the same lovely process above.
anyway, that’s enough rambling, take what you will from it, whether it was something or nothing.