Is it just me? Am I the only one that feels this way? Are there other supporters out there that have been in a blue funk all day, or at least since the end of the VFL game? I am not talking about the feeling we all had when the AFL handed down their penalties. I am talking about that feeling, that after so much excitement, and so much expectation for the last twelve months, that the season has ended. It came a bout prematurely for the Seniors, and at the hands of 30 minutes of first rate football in the second quarter in the ressies, but regardless of how it happened, it's over.
I have no interest in this years finals, the sanctions from the AFL have seen to that. I couldn't care less who wins and loses, and I won't be watching them. Count me one less for the AFL's worldwide viewing audience. For the first time I can remember, my interest in the game has ended in the first week of September. I will not be sitting at the pub, having a beer, and cheering on the eventual winner or loser of the Grand Final. I will spend my weekends between now and next year pottering around my garden or in my shed.
My wife commented that I have been in a bad mood all day, and I said not true. What I am is sad, almost inconsolable, nearly on the verge of tears. I quit smoking three years ago, I haven't had a bet since the Melbourne Cup, I drink about half a dozen beers at Christmas/New Year and I don't do drugs. The only vice I have is my football. When I was younger I played on a Saturday or Sunday and watched the game. As I got older and Foxtel came on the scene, I had finished playing, so watched all the games, or as many as I could fit in. I don't watch normal telly, I don't even watch the news as a rule. Now I don't even care, my enjoyment is gone. Even last night, I couldn't raise more than an "oh come on" when the umps allowed three Richmond players in a row throw the ball away.
I still love the Essendon football club, but after 48 years, I feel like I have lost my innocence. There is something inherently wrong, when the one thing that provided you with a little bit of escapism, that you spent all off season thinking and talking about, that dominates your social interaction with others, no longer means much to you. I will still cheer on the Bombers, and hope like hell we beat whoever we are playing, but I couldn't give a stuff anymore about the competition. I couldn't care less if another team is on the way up or down, whether they have a scandal or not. Football to me has always been about joy. Win or lose, for three hours a week, for 22-26 weeks a year, I could forget all about all the **** things that have happened in my life, and lose myself in the game. For the moment, my enjoyment is gone, and I don't know if I will ever get that back.
And that's the last thing I or anyone else, should be experiencing on Fathers Day.