This is the important part. Being able to tell someone/anyone that what you are feeling or going through right now is what counts. Keep it up and keep posting.
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Is this you moving from here to US or other way around.
Sounds ā ā ā ā either way. hang tough mate
Back to Melbourne in September last year after 10 years in Colorado.
For those worried about me - Iām gonna be okay. Iām glad I said it. I need this farking election to pass. I find the conventions to be especially depressing because they tend to reinforce all of the problems I have with our system and our two monopolistic parties.
And Iāve got a potential work opportunity that may turn into something really awesome - a second chance at something I missed out on a couple of years ago, so I have some good daily motivation this week.
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Really hope it pans out for you this time. Good luck!
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Iām not being a smart arze. If youāre looking at this thread because you are in a depressed state, itās probably best if you donāt visit this thread:
Iām serious.
Probably best if you donāt read most of Blitz, right now.
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I told work that Iām taking the rest of the week off this morning for my mental health. its been building
it felt really good. I am gonna go on a little road trip for a couple of days
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so did the road trip
Halfway there my radiator hose leaked, dropped all the water and my car cooked itself lol. head on the 4wd is definitely cooked and im almost certain motor is too
when it rains, it pours. on the bright side ive been towed to the closest town that has a motel and a TV. if I ever wanted a dons winā¦its now 
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COOKED.
Itās a sign!
we lost
yay
ive got a pretty long fuse. I honestly do
Iām about at the end. not figuratively, but geez, look at my last two posts
for what I have gone through in the last few months personally, for my fucken car to blow up, on my way to refresh my mental state on the day I take annual leaveā¦i canāt even begin to describe what Iām feeling
its time for a break from blitz and football. (we are pathetic, honestly. it doesnāt help a nuffie like me) but my fkn life revolves around footy. it feels like a one way relationship with this club
im gonna go try something different. I dont know what it will be, but I need change
love ya blitz. ill be back one day
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I remember a time where it felt my car mirrored my mental state. Every time my head was farked, my car would blow up and cost untolds amounts of money.
Itās not a fun feeling mate, I feel for ya.
Also remember, that you can find peace from mental illness in the most unlikeliest of places, maybe even a motel in the middle of nowhere.
Donāt totally disappear mate, check-in over the next few days.
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good luck and i hope ya find the peace youāre looking for, away from football.
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The head on your motor can be repaired, WOB. Look after the one on your shoulders, mate.
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the next day, wellā¦its a new day
I definitely over react in terms of āwe suck, club is cooked etcā I just think that was a on flow of my day yesterday. we werenāt that bad at all last night.
I guess when you actually try to do something positive for yourself and it massively backfires on the day your doing it - that stings a little. a lot, infact
and i could never leave. im like that old armchair that has been in the corner for 17 years (literally thatās how long Iāve been here, lol) but I do need to find other enjoyment and hobbies and probably take footy a little less seriously.
anyway, Iāve got the next week off work. I am looking forward to it
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I think alot of us are in the same boat re needing to find better/healthier alternatives to investing ones emotional state into, itās just sadly the worst time for alot of us Victorians to come to that realisation, with our inability to pretty much leave the house 
but itās a hard concept to deal with, as iām in the same boat (just less liked here haha) iāve been here 17 odd years( I still find it odd that people on here will say I hate essendon or enjoy a loss, i mean damn I know i can be petty but hell even iād struggle to be that petty to stick around for that long just to supposedly rub in the face how ā ā ā ā the club is, for a laugh or a quick troll or whatever runs through their heads), footy has been a big part of my life and iāve never understood how anyone could be like, argh well win or lose donāt get emotionally invested.
To me thatās the whole point of anything really, and the biggest irony i could never understand, some of the people saying it would spend big chunks of their days on an essendon fanpage telling/lecturing others about not investing too much.
but as youāve also said itās a habit thatās been apart of our lives for the better part of 30 odd years, and itās hard just turning that off.
but I always try to relate supporting football back to how youād treat people and situations in real life.
and this year to me has woken me up to the simple home truth of
you canāt help people who donāt want to help themselves, and thatās the club in a nutshell, players, coaches, supporters still donāt see much wrong with whatās going on (itās growing, but not enough to force change), and summed up the easiest by a guy whoās out the door in 3 matches saying weāll be a great side very quickly, while constantly producing below par performances.
you canāt help change something or someone who seeās no problem with the way they are, and the club donāt see what they are at present as a problem.
but it is hard to walk away sadly, so hopefully ya find a way to do it and find better peace in ya life, then come back and gives us other suckers advice on how to achieve it also
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Iāve tried to search the threads but Iām trying to find the link to Hirdyās chat with Crawf.
Need to send it to a mate.
I was about to condemn you for being trite, then something occurred to me
Iām dull on account of over-use?
Close enough.
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